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i HAVE BEEN BULLIED AND NOW IM THINKING ABOUT SUCIDAL THOUGHTS I DONT NO WHAT TO DO

I believe that bullying may indeed be directly associated with teen suicide.
This has been my my direct experience...through my own experiences and what i have seen happen to my friends around me.

I can tell you from personal experience, what being bullied is like. You feel lower than dirt, you can't do anything about it, I had maybe 1 friend out of the whole middle school. My attitude and ADHD just made it worse for me. Yeah I thought about killing myself multiple times, I am just glad that I didn't.
Because I am a senior in High School that is about to graduate and High school is almost nothing like Middle school.

I know that being bullied is hard. and i know that killing your self seems like the only way out. but if you can keep pushing and find just one true friend. a friend who will be there for you no matter what you can make it. suicide is not going to help. trust me on that one

as a school girl in grade.8 on vancouver island i have found that most kids in my school are bullied.. and im one of the kids being bullied along with my best friend. i dont know abbout her but whenever im bullied and the others doing the bullying tell me that if i was dead the world would be better place.. i often think about it.. and even if nobody knows it i have 3 suicide notes written so i can read them whenever i consider it and i find that after i just cry and i cant really do it.. but i was going to one day and i had told my older sister .. she didnt believe me and i was about to until one personhad been nice to me. and i often will hurt myself if im sad or mad.. and my parrents told me if i continue doing this they will put me in councling and soo on.. but ive oftin thought.. wouldnt it be the altimid f*** you to kill your self on school property in the morning for all the bullies to see? but i can never pull myself to do it.. wich is a good thing .... but thats just one kids apinion thats being bullied...

as a school girl in grade.8 on vancouver island i have found that most kids in my school are bullied.. and im one of the kids being bullied along with my best friend. i dont know abbout her but whenever im bullied and the others doing the bullying tell me that if i was dead the world would be better place.. i often think about it.. and even if nobody knows it i have 3 suicide notes written so i can read them whenever i consider it and i find that after i just cry and i cant really do it.. but i was going to one day and i had told my older sister .. she didnt believe me and i was about to until one personhad been nice to me. and i often will hurt myself if im sad or mad.. and my parrents told me if i continue doing this they will put me in councling and soo on.. but ive oftin thought.. wouldnt it be the altimid f*** you to kill your self on school property in the morning for all the bullies to see? but i can never pull myself to do it.. wich is a good thing .... but thats just one kids apinion thats being bullied...

Have any of you thought about your family? Maybe..younger sisters/brothers? Mom or Dad?Grandparents?
Hey I was bullied big time when I was a kid and all middle school. I got beat up so many times I dont remember them all. I was wimpy and short. I was raped by my father when I was 8 and continue till I was 11 when he figured out I already knew what he was doing!
And you all thinking of SUICIDE! Im now 31 and I have 4 children. Im strong thanks to all that crab in school,I now tell my children not to pay attention to bullies, after all...they problably get mistreated at home and need the urge of power at school ! Right..get it!

I have tried on several occasions to off myself... my record is 10 failed attempts...I hurt myself in school at home...everywhere...I'm bullied even at the high school level...and my school does nothing about it..I understand bullies and how they think but it doesn't help...They make me misserable...not to mention my home life is probly worse than thier's ...my Parents tell me often "We're tired of dealing with your S***" it makes me feel unwanted and that I should just disapear...i assume this comment thing is dead...but i guess writing it makes me feel better...I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel as the expression goes...there is no happy ending for me...life is pointless, and I'm worthless to the world...I should just end it...why is there no guns in this hell hole I'm forced to call "Home" T.T

Whoever you are, don't off yourself. As hopeless as it all seems and yeah man it gets pretty bad just try to see it all as something temporary. Give it time and work yourself towards a better independent future, plus things better time overtime. And also man try meditation or yoga type things, those forms of spirituality aren't always bullshit if you find the right ones. If anything just learn some yoga and work out and stuff. Keep yourself busy till you can go to college or get a job a or whatever to work your way better. Plus man if bullies are a big problem, then you'll love the bully free environment of almost all colleges :] And as for parents...well they're all like that...hell some of them try to leave their kids starving. Peace bro/sis keep it going on, and if all else fails, last resort, check out Ayahuasca, it can give you such a head change that will definitely shake your depression off you, also a bit of a dangerous method XD.

Whoever you are, don't off yourself. As hopeless as it all seems and yeah man it gets pretty bad just try to see it all as something temporary. Give it time and work yourself towards a better independent future, plus things better time overtime. And also man try meditation or yoga type things, those forms of spirituality aren't always bullshit if you find the right ones. If anything just learn some yoga and work out and stuff. Keep yourself busy till you can go to college or get a job a or whatever to work your way better. Plus man if bullies are a big problem, then you'll love the bully free environment of almost all colleges :] And as for parents...well they're all like that...hell some of them try to leave their kids starving. Peace bro/sis keep it going on, and if all else fails, last resort, check out Ayahuasca, it can give you such a head change that will definitely shake your depression off you, also a bit of a dangerous method XD.

For those people out there who think that people who attempt or do suicide don't think or care about how their families and friends will react to it, think AGAIN. A lot of us (I am thinking seriously about suicide myself) do consider that, but we know that those people don't truly love or care about us anyway, so it won't hit them hard. Besides, they should've seen it coming,paid more attention or thought about all their careless, stupid actions if that person is about to commit SUICIDE, for chrissakes. And if you tell us that it's a selfish act, you have no idea what we're going through and how we feel. Saying that would probably make us more likely to kill ourselves. Watch what you say; I know I might sound blind and angry to you,but I know what I'm saying.

that is like the worse thing ive heard thats ashame we need to STOP BULLYING

I suffered through 8 years of school bullying... it would start on my way to school, and of course continue at school and just keep happening all the way home Mon - Fri. Yea... my head would be stuffed into a toilet full of crap... shoved and locked in a locker with puke dripping on me... getting a beat down usually by a girl who was backed up by a few guys... and of course we can't forget the name calling and being told that I was put here to be picked on... should I go on? What really hurt me the most is that the girls in my high-school bullied me too... of course they always had their boyfriends surrounding me so if I did fight back the guys would hold me down. And the weekends were no better... I would run into these same people at the local mall, park, movie or where ever... and they would bully me there too... yea... I didn't have any friends. Suicide was a daily though for me... I devised soooo many ways I could do it. And here I am 45 years later writing to all of you about it.

Why didn't I just kill myself? Well here's the simple answer. Because then they win.
Here's the hard part... I wasn't gonna give them that satisfaction, no frakken way!! I would always tell myself that I was way better than them... I would even say it to them, they would laugh at me and maybe even hit me... but I could see it in their eyes that I was right.

TO ALL MY FELLOW BULLYING VICTIMS... Here is the real truth... and I know you know it.... the bullies are frakken losers. The world would be a better place if they were gone. But we all know they aren't going anywhere, and they're gonna get all the cool shit, and they will always seem to have all the best ideas yadda yadda yadda...
HERE'S SOMETHING ELSE THAT YOU HAVE PROBABLY ASKED YOURSELF AND POSSIBLY THEM "Why me? What have I done???" And here is the truth (again I know you already know this) They are jealous of you.
You have something they want... they need... it's like a drug addiction because they can't seem to go a day without it. What is it??? It's all your reactions to their bullying... NOW you have something only you can control... and you can use it against them. It sure as hell isn't easy to force yourself not to automatically react in your usual way... and it sure as hell isn't gonna feel good at first. But trust in yourself, you can gain control of this. Damn right it takes a lot of concentration and commitment on your part... but you will win!

Believe me I know, I did it and I won large one day. I ran into one of my main bullies about 10 years after I finished high-school, he was sitting in a junk heap of a car with 3 screaming brats and a fat ugly wife, they were all bitchin' at him... then he spotted me... we regognized each other... I smiled walked up to his window and said "I see that you are having a great life". I walked back to my car (a rather nice new New Yorker) climbed in and just smiled at him as I watched his wife smack him in the head.

It was really good to see this shithead getting bullied by his own wife and kids... payback is a bitch lol lol

I have never found out anything about my other tormentors... not that I really want to know... but I can picture them in the same light.

I won... they lost... and I lived to see it with my own two eyes. So can you!

Every one of you are wanted and needed... there is a reason to live, and you will find it if you give it a chance to show itself to you. I care about all of you because I truly do know what your going through.