I have been telling myself lies since I started this Master Cleanse. It makes me wonder who else I will lie to and what other character flaws I have.
1. I tell myself I am NOT in this to lose weight. Lie! Not so deep down, I hope to lose 20 lbs in these 10 days and become and look fighting mean. Fat chance of that. It comes from being too fat to begin with, hah! Cleaner, healthier, leaner...is what it is suppose to be about. And, to be sure, I think about those things often, but the lie of it is, I want to lose weight...and no doubt have (but not 20lbs), and will put it back on if I don't make life changes in the way I eat. I have three more days of this nonsense...perhaps I should take another look at how I got to this place, be HONEST with myself and make some changes.
3. I told myself that I would do this all alone and see what happens. Lie! Yesterday, I was desperate to learn about other fools, er, challengers to this cleanse, to know what they had experienced and learned and shared in hopes of getting some insight. I found a book at the local Borders, or was it a B&N, they both look the same to me, which was written by Peter Glickman. In it he described the experiences of some 100 people who participated in the cleanse together (virtually) in January 2004 or was it 2005. As, I said before, I don't think too hard, and I guess I don't read too well, either. Blame this mental lapse on the Master Cleanse! At any rate, the book was almost useless to me and after reading it I felt like I was being inducted into a cult started by Stanley Burroughs. Now, I must fear some eastern spirit won't take advantage of my weak physical, spiritual and mental state.
4. I tell myself I am NOT really hungry or craving any foods. Lie! I want waffles for breakfast, even whole wheat ones will do. I want to watch a movie with my wife and munch on a snack without feeling guilty. I want to go out to eat on the weekend with friends and eat ribs. I miss these things...a lot. I want things! And they will make my tongue happy. 95 hours and 18 minutes to go!
And now I also wonder what other deceptions I will play on myself in the coming days. I must be careful, because I know I cannot trust myself.
Oh...one thing I did read yesterday that I remember...Day 7 is the worse. Today is day 7 and that is NOT a lie.
Originally posted at bill belew.com
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